If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!
Rudyard Kipling
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Ca ne me ressemble pas tout ce qui s'est passé.
Je n'ai pas envie d'en parler. Pas aux gens. Pas à mes amis. Pas à mes proches.
Je ne veux pas me plaindre.
Mais c'est impossible à comprendre ! J'ai toujours détesté être amoureux. Parce que ça sous-entend qu'on recherche la réciproque, alors que je déteste encore plus me demander si on m'aime.
Je préfère que tout le monde me déteste sincèrement, plutôt que de me demander en permanence pourquoi on peut bien m'apprécier.
Alors pourquoi j'ai voulu que toi tu m'aime ?
Je découvre ma part de primitivité. L'inexplicable. Je n'arrive pas à m'analyser sur ce coup-là.
Et ça continue. Enfin je crois comprendre qu'il s'agit d'amertume vis-à-vis de ce que j'ai dit et fait.
Si ça tombe ça va aller mieux un jour ! Haha ...
Allez les copains, on rempile pour une année ...
Plus vite ce sera fait, plus vite on sera morts
Some lessons don't come easy
And that's the price we have to pay
Some lessons we learn the hard way
(Why ? ...)